Why So Down-Cast?
I remember a night when I went to Worship, feeling like I wish I could just sit down and have a good cry like some women
are allowed to do“and nobody thinks any less of them for doing so, (However,
I couldn’t even make my eyes to water, but I felt so despondent and
oppressed and I could not explain why, I felt like I had sinned over and
over and over again and just can’t get past this hurdle ever, and that I was
a disappointment to myself and to Yahweh, woe is me, for I am undone “I,
I, I, it’s was ALL about me”).
But, I went anyhow, and came very close to turning and walking out, right as I came to the door, and again as I went inside and kneeled down and started rehearsing the ‘Oh, What a Worm I am’
Song & Dance Routine, (you know the one “where “I’m so
unworthy.”blah, blah, blah”)
Colossians 4:2 ~
“Continue Steadfastly in Prayer, Watching Therein
or from the Amplified Bible“
~ “Be earnest and unwearied and steadfast in your prayer
[life], being [both] alert and intent in [your praying]
Then suddenly, I saw Yahweh’s Word on the OverHead
Screen “and I changed my mind about myself, (those feelings of missing God
yet one more time, and instead ALL I could think about was even if I don’t
have any fruit, “Yet I WILL Rejoice in Yahweh ;
I will Exult in the [victorious] God of my Salvation~!”
couldn’t recall at the time any that I have witnessed to about Yahweh that is now living a victorious life, “in Health, Finances, etc.
Later on, Yahweh showed me some, but when your mind is fixed on yourself,
it’s hard to see past your own short-comings}.